We will always be that way . Always .

I'm pretty sure everyone had been or at least would ever been in my points right now . Scared .
Did you ever scared that everyone that say they love you and had been so care of you will suddenly leave ?
They could just leave anytime , right ?
Did you ever think how bad it would feel if your best friends find another good girl that they comfortable with  and leave you just hanging assuming they still your best friends ?
They could just find one girl better than you in this big crowd world , right ?
Did you ever feel when the one you loved so much and loved you so much too , leave you hanging alone loving him for the rest of your life , watching him laughing with anothers and treat you like nothing ever happened , like a total stranger ?
He could just run away if he got bored , right ?
Did you ever scared to hate someone , or ok let's say, your ex , that you never want to hate from the deepest heart ?
He could just be different anytime , right ?
Did you ever think how hard would it be when you don't have anyone to lean on , to tell your joke , to share your tears , to keep your secret ?
The people who used to be , could just gone anytime , right ?
Did you ever scared that someday you will wake up , feel differently and everyone , everything has change , and you will have the rest of your life asking what was going on ?
Everything will change anytime , right ?

People are just people . They could leave , gone , change , or anything , anytime they have to , or want to . They probably will leave after we've done something they think the foolish things ever . Despite we didn't know either you're making a mistake or not . They could suddenly forget that we're all human too . They could sometimes force us to be perfect . Force us to be like what they want us to be , or act . They will  hate our bitchy attitudes . They probably will talk behind our backs . They could leave anytime , and find another better 'me'. They could say to the world that we were so bad , treat us like strangers , leave us hanging hoping that everything would be back normal , like usual  .

We might be those people for others . Nothing lasts forever , even people . Who used to care so much , loved us so much , told us that they will always be here no matter what will happen , even there are storms everywhere or even if those bitches will try to kill them . lol . But hey , admit it , we've trusted those words and thought how lucky you are for having someone told us those things , right ? Yea , we're all human , baby . We never be enough of confusion . We will always live with these kind of questions . We will get left behind , left by our loved ones , betrayed by the people we've trusted so much , talked about behind our backs , even we could die got killed by the closest person . I don't know wether those things happen for good or what . God already has the plans for us . We all will always live by trying to be perfect , the best , treating others unappropriately , complaining , shouting , loving , hating , laughing , crying and other things we thought are the best . We will live by remembering those things those people gave to us . Memories . But sometimes , we will got tired and i thought what's best is we have to survive by forgetting . Forgetting how they treat us or what they gave us .

Complaining too much , eh ?

Well , by being 17 i thought i could think better than before ( not to mention that i'm the best or a fully mature-grown-up or what , really , i still have kiddie side inside me) . But anyway , i know everyone will know this post is one of my thought .

And yea , by typing these ridiculous words (i thought so..)i'm not saying that i am the most perfect-never-complain-or-even-try-to person . But yea , i'm complaining much too . I'm complaining about those bitches attitudes those group of people did to me . I'm complaining on break-ups , on a fight , on how people ignore me . This one thing i most likely to complain : when people ask me to do something far away from my reach . Yea , i think people do that too . Normal people , or even the weird one , like me.
Anyway ! Back to the point yaaaayyy .
You , or maybe We , really should try hard to do the "don't complain on everything" thing . Take a deep breath , try to resist the urge to complain , and yea , just go with the flow . For real , i tried on little things and  yeaa , maybe not much but it works sometimes ~ Things you don't like will just past and go flowing with the time . Then , on seconds , you'll realize how fast you can do things IF you do it without complaining .
Just count how many seconds you'll waste on complaining , it will make you need more time to have those things done .

Well  , haah (that was a sigh , i wish everyone will read it and i wish it sounds exactly like i want lol ) i a exactly not being the most right girl here . But at least , that was my thought . I'm trying too here . So yea , wish me luck on being better !

The Thing

No more a kid , i'm not obeying the first-post should about the introduction. Fuck that . 
(Ignore that , baby. Sorry for being rude because i was typing this while listening to i write sins not tragedies by panic at the disco . )

So , here's the thing . I don't wanna seem so weak , but , don't you feel so small when you couldn't  handle the thing that everyone could handle easily ? Not to mention that everyone should be the same , but don't you feel it ? Based on this one 'everyone-words' , that everyone has a weakness , that was so normal . But , don't you feel that your 'thing-you-couldn't-do-but-everyone-could' thingy is the worst ? The most embarassing weakness ever . I know everyone would say , " So , work on that thing harder " Work harder . How IF it also doesn't work ? ( well , i'm not that optimist human being. So yea.. there'll be a plenty of 'what if's ) No one will understand how hard you've tried and how hard it is to be such like that . In my eyes , some of them are going to be like "If you couldn't handle that little thing , how could you be a grown-up and face the life ? How will you work with the circumstance ? How will you deal with this cruel world ? How ?"  I still don't know the answer of all those enigmas . All of them . 

Well , i wish this post doesn't sound so "pessimist" . If anyone feel that way , i didn't mean it , baby . Here's a pict i took from the internet , to add some motivating atmosphere . (or...it's not funny :| )

p.s : sorry if there are some typo words that i didn't realize . I swear , 'til now , i haven't realized if there are some typo words yet :| just IF .